ProcrastiNATION

I have been working on a personal project for one year. It is really shameful if I factor in all the hours/minutes and energy I have put in on other people's project. Each time I sit down to finish my project, mind you it only needs tweaking and some updating, I feel lethargic and down right lazy.

I am beginning to wonder if I have a subconscious issue with this project. I have been sitting in front of my laptop for the past two hours and I have just barely made a dent. I have a pile of notes sitting by me that I have diligently compiled over the months. I know the material like the back of my hand but when it comes down to putting it in action I am stumped.

Today, Inshallah, I intend to finish this project come hell or high water. I am going to lose out on a great many opportunities due to this negligence. Ugh, pray for me :( My mind is devious in coming up with excuses.

Snow on the ground

Its snowing in October. I am so looking into those school in the Caribbean now.

I have something I have to do but don't want to do. How does one resolve having two minds about something? Xuujo socooto!

Character flaws

I have them so do you. I just have a problem with people pointing them out. I got irritated today because a couple of my friends teased me about my continuous habit of being tardy. Now, I know this character flaw exists in a fair number of Somalis but I try. I really do.

Needless to say I got very offended. I didn't think that my friends should pick on me especially when its something they know I am sensitive about. When I got home I turned all my clocks and watches another five minutes ahead knowing fully well its not going to make a difference.

My tardiness has just become the norm. At work my boss knows I am consistently eight minutes late.It is now a private joke between him and I. When we make plans for meetings outside work, my co-workers always ask me to be somewhere ten minutes ahead of everyone else thereby ensuring I get there on time.

I really just don't know what to do to improve on this character flaw. Help me ;(

**curling up doe eyed under her blanky***